Monday, May 9, 2011

In memory of my mom

Mother's Day is an emotional day for me. This one was the third one without my mother. My husband and I talked a lot about her. It made me cry, and it made me smile. She passed away in December 2008. That deep scar in my heart will never heal. She was a beautiful women, strong and brave.  

Rozalija Novak 1942-2008

In this photo from the late 60's she's at work as a dental assistant. She worked in the same dental office until she retired. She loved her job, never complained about it. I remember as  a child visiting her place of work and being terrified by all those dental instruments and samples of the fake teeth on the shelf. 

My kids didn't have much chance to bond with her. They have some wonderful memories of spending time with her on our visits in Croatia, and a few times she visited us in States. 

I was lucky enough through my childhood to spend every summer with my grandma in Croatia, and it makes me sad that my kids didn't have that chance.
We have to make choices in our lives. I know we can't have everything we want, but sometimes some sacrifices have a tough price we have to pay.   

My mother's name was Rozalija (ro-ZAH-lee-yah), the Slavic version of Rosalia. Many friends and family called her Rosie. She loved roses and lilies, that she grew in front of her house. Even in the last three years of her life, while fighting cancer, she would still go out and tend to them. Her will to live was amazing.
This song from Enya is for her: